| hey ppl... yea i kno i got ya messages bout u all wantin updates.... well guess wat i'm back... i seriously dunno wats goin on with me and this site.... i need to remember to come on here more and update more.... but yea
ive had tons goin on this past month. i've been going to school, which i am definitely making new friends and meeting new ppl. also theres soooooo much homework and its just too much for me to handle.with as much classwork and homework ive done in these past two months i feel like its like 6 months of being in lhs. i seriously thought about for a split second to leave after this semester cuz its so freaking hard for me. im in remedial classes. thats the sad part... i have no knowledge to be in college yet. i feel so low like i wont achieve with how i am doing in my classes now. im in danger of failing math, and i dunt even know how my reading class is going. damn it just sucks right now for me with school. its gonna be a while before i am back in lhs teaching. but yea enough with school.
ive been mostly hanging out wit my best friend jessica mcdade. we go anywhere from elizabeth at jersey gardens like twice a week, to woodbridge mall like 2 times a week. or just hanging out at my house. usually we go out at like 1pm and do somehting somewhere then either we eat there or we go get something to eat, eat there or bring it back to my house then we stay up till like 3am then i drive her home. seriously its sooo much fun. we talk about EVERYTHING.... its so much different when i hang out with her. being the fact that since like august, everyweek like 3-4 or more times a week we're doing somehting. i trust her and she trusts me. she has helped me sooo much that she dont even consider me to be the same person i was in high school. i kinda melted in the grade meaning like i didnt fit in any group and i felt out of place. i knew ppl but i didnt KNO ppl. i talk to so many different ppl now and i'm acquainted wit many new ppl..... and i hav to give the thanks all to her, jessica mcdade. if it werent for her helping me out and changing how i act, dress, talk, walk, almost everything, i wouldn't be where i am today or who i am. she has really helped me out. me and her share sooo much that i feel like i've known her for so much longer then i hav. so yea.
friday at the homecoming game lol wow i had fun. i saw a bunch of lhs ppl there i hadnt seen since graduation. the thing was i don't look, act, or dress the same i did in high school. so ppl were a bit shocked when they saw me. im not surprised. but i talked to about 7 or 8 ppl. when we were talking i guess it was like they were so surprised to see me there that they acted like they knew me so well. i mean i got like 4 hugs and compliments from jerry, then i saw quinn and he hugged me twice and was talking to em, then marcus was huggin me mad hard then talking to me. im saying to myself ok wow these are very frienly ppl lol. but hey thats good, its a good thing i am the way i am now. but then there were a gropu of ppl that i really don't kno at all i just knew of them and they were all doing the same that the other were doing. im like ok so its normal. but all in all i had fun and i wish it would be like this for everyday. but it wouldnyt be so random if it was. so basically this is all for now, im sure i have more but i dunno it off hand right now. so i'll be back. |