lalala no one's here! *Sigh* Whatelse is new? I'm working on turning sleepinginside,the original, into another anime website. I have the layout but thats probably all ill do. I never have time to update all the sites and everyone who has been my partner has either been too busey or doesn't know basic html tags. I could have gone peach picking with my grandma and uncle but I got up too late and I really didn't want to sit through 2 hours of my uncle talking about the perfect peach while I'm just standing there baking in the sun.It's not exactly fun.

Seriously I should just sleep all day and stay up all night. It's so boring here during the day. At least there's good radio on at night. I downloaded most of the cowboy bebop soundtracks yesterday. They're so cool. Other then that, nothing has happened.

Currently listening to BAD DOG NO BISCUT-from cowboy bebop

Woohoo picture..and it's blurry?! Humm... Oh well, bad resolution.You might be able to tell but I seem to be feeling a whole lot better right now. I wonder why. Really tired though. It seems like I'm always tired during the day. Why can't school and everything be at night so I can sleep durning the day? Well anyway I've been school shopping and mom came home today! Yay! Lets see now I have jeans! I took my aunt into Hot Topic and I thought she was going to have a heart attack. It really was fastinating. All she could say was "Umm they have a very uh interesting selection"

And I've been working on my summer reading projects but I think I must be the only one in town who has actually read their books. Other then that not much has been going on. My cous is back in school and that basically means that the summer is ending for me and I don't think it's a bad thing right now. I need stress to keep me from thinking too much. If I think too much people have a habit of calling me crazy.Humm I wonder if I'll survive this year without a breakdown. Well I guess I'll see soon.

Currently listening to Tatu- Show Me Love (ex verson)

Ok my life just compleatly sucks right now. I mean forget the usual boredness it's just totally F-ked up. I really don't want to go into it yet because I'll have about 20 people all feeling sorry for me and that's the last thing I need. I did basiclly nothing today. I was up till 3 last night just because sleeping doesnt seem to agree with me so I didn't get up till around 11. I watched Yugioh, ate...yeah maybe I'll do some drawing because my plans for today are shot. I was going to go to a baseball game but the date was all mixed up so now I'm just left in my house all abandoned. But whatelse is new. Dad's at the hospital checking up on mom.

And I don't want to feel like another summer has been wasted on nothing but yet again it is and this year came to an all time low. No beach, no people, no fun. It kinda sucks when you feel like your in your 50's at age 15.The thing that bothers me is that the year will only get worse. I was optimistic at the start of the summer but as you slowly watch people you love  deterorate and all you can do is watch, it kinda has an effect on you.

Though I have to wonder where the heck all my friends are. I mean honestly Alison and Mario are the only two have actually tried to connact me. Miro is off in a world of his own and Paul is "too busy." Alicia wouldn't contact me if the world was comming to an end and everyone else is just compleatly unaccounted for. So you can see that there is no contact there. 

And I guess it's my falt too. I know my personality is changing. I really don't like it but I don't know how to stop it. I'm more bitter then I used to be and the world is darker then ever. No one wants me to be who I am. I guess it scares them. I can only stay quiet in the dark for so long. But in the end, Does it really matter? Everyone feels like everything is wrong sometimes. It's a common human emotion so everyone just looks the other way when someone is suffering. I mean...what can you do? Seesh I really am getting to be depressing. Even Casey says so. Well I guess change is for the better.

Currently Listening to Evanescence- Whisper.(fitting isn't it?) Well that's all for now. It seems later then it is.